The Waiting Game

Can I just say that I'm obsessed? I'm obsessed with preschool! The teacher in me can't wait to take on a new adventure in education! Addy is loving the new activities too. I'm not ready to do structured preschool with her, but I've picked up a few ideas along the way that she loves! Yesterday we got her UNO Moo game out with colored game pieces and she did some sorting where she sorted the pieces into like colors. She was pretty proud of herself when she was done and it has become a game that she keeps going back to. I also hit up the Valentine's Day Clearance section at Walmart and picked up some plastic hearts, taped numbers to them and we've organized them in numerical order from 1-10, but more than anything she just really enjoys playing with them. I've gotten a ton of ideas from confessionsofahomeschooler.blogspot.com there is just an endless amount of stuff to look at and download!

I got my pregnancy packet (adoption paperwork) FINALLY in the mail last Thursday. Now it's out of our hands and in the hands of our social worker. No matter how qualified I know I am to have another child, I'm always concerned about how we look on paper. It makes me feel self-conscious to know that the future of my family depends on how good we look on paper. I'm so glad that our social worker had a chance to see our family in person and she can see that we are choosing to live simply so that we can make spending time as a family a priority. I find myself doubting that we will be approved, but then I realize that I'm being a doubting Thomas. I so badly need to keep my eyes fixed on the Lord and realize that He has everything completely under control.

We went to visit some friends who have a young baby this past weekend and one night as I went to sleep I found myself talking to God about our future child. I trust Him fully when it comes to what kind of child gets placed with us. I know that if He provides a toddler we will love that toddler and that child will be the perfect child for us. But, I also know that the desire of my heart is a baby. It feels impossible with the type of adoption that we're doing to get placed with an infant, but I also know that with God all things are possible so I ask! Regardless of what happens I know that my loving Father wants to hear the desires of my heart. As long as I'm asking with a heart that is submissive to His plan and that is open to what He has in store for me. I know He hears my requests, but I trust Him with this decision so much more than I trust myself! Even when I think I know what I want He knows me so much better than I know myself and He desires even more for me than I would ask for myself! There is nothing to doubt or to distrust. He provided above and beyond anything I could have asked for or dreamed of with Addy. He EXCEEDED my dreams, my hopes and my expectations. I have no doubt He will do that again even if the end result is different from what I currently am hoping and praying for. I need to call our social worker tomorrow to make sure she got our packet. Hopefully all is well!