The Big News...

So....tired.... You all know we went into this process with our eyes wide open and we always knew that even though the SW's were confident that things were going to go in our favor that were was a possibility that it wouldn't. Well, once I finally got a response from the SW it was not what I wanted to hear. Basically, the court sided with mom and are giving her six months of services again. I'm still learning about the process, but I'm pretty sure that when parents are given six months of services that those kids are not classified as "adoptable." So, now Dora is unadoptable and she is no longer even in the adoptions unit which means that we have a choice. To choose to be her foster parents for the next six months and see where things are going to go or let her leave and be placed into a foster home. So, we've taken massive steps backwards in the process. I'm still waiting to talk to our social worker, I think she'll explain it better than Dora's social worker did. I'm just not sure what happens in six months if mom doesn't get her act together enough. I don't know how long it will drag on. I've been on the phone with the FM all afternoon off and on and the thing that I keep seeing is how unexpected this decision is. It just doesn't make sense from a human perspective. I saw it from SWD and I'm seeing it in the FM. Rights SHOULD have been terminated yesterday and something strange happened and they weren't.

My spirit is crushed and I'm exhausted beyond words, but I know that God is most glorified in hopeless situations. This decision came as a surprise to us, but not to God. It's taken me a few hours to come around, but I know that out of hopeless situations He makes miracles happen and He is glorified all the more because of it. I know it's weird, but I'm starting to feel confident in the fact that things are so messed up and the unexpected happened. It's almost like I can see God working in the situation. I don't think this is over. I don't know what the outcome will be and just as I went into it with eyes wide open the first time, I'll keep my eyes open and fixed on Jesus and pray for a miracle.